I hear the word and cringe even thought I've battled the issue for so long. To hear celebs, people whom kids and adults alike look up to, use the term to bash a fellow celeb saddens me. We are in a world where "stick and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me" no longer covers the pain of being called something. Rosie said she loves it when people call her fat like it's a huge surprise to her. Deep down it hurts...fat is something that is, not something you are. Those "not fat" people who throw around this new F word like it's a weapon of mass distruction don't understand the emotional side of the weight struggle. I questioned many times as a child, as a teen, as a young adult and now as a thirty-something "Why did God make me overweight?". I look around at these teens who are obsessed with their size 2 figure...why obsess over a size I've never been? Why does everything sag? Why do I have to struggle? WHY WHY WHY? I sit down with Jen, eat the same amount of the same food, she gains no weight, I gain 2 lbs. She doesn't eat for days and her pants no longer fit. I don't eat for days and my weight maintains. What is it about the human body, metabolism, fat.
Then there's the word obese. Never thought about it until I was sitting in the doctor's office one day, staring at a chart of BMI (body mass index for those of you stuck in the cyberworld). There was the blue catagory...YOU ARE A HEALTHY WEIGHT. The green catagory....YOU ARE OVERWEIGHT. The yellow catagory...YOU ARE OBESE. Then there was the red catagory...YOU ARE MORBIDLY OBESE!!!! I was in that catagory by about 30 pounds. I know I've gone up a few sizes, I know things drop where they've never drooped before, but to read it...yikes. Then moments later I'm talking to my doctor about getting pregnant and she states her concerns and the fact that I'm MORBIDLY OBESE! Hearing it was worse than reading it. In fact, it scared the crap out of me! However, did this change anything?
Well, after 4 weeks, I finally joined Curves again. It was great, but I only lost 7lbs in 3 months time. Baby steps right. Well, after the start of drama club, then basketball practice, and the holidays (I know excuses, excuses), 5 of the 7lbs came back.
Now it's a new year, 6 months from now I'm suppose to be going back to the doctor, 60 lbs lighter and ready to start insemenation. 10 lbs a month...it could be done. But where do I get the motivation...how do I get motivated!
Okay, this blog is suppose to be about FAT...not motivation. Can you tell I love tangents and have ADD...wanna play cards!
FAT...Mr. Trump used it to insult Ms. O'Donnell. She's still standing! Rosie rocks...Donald has nothing better to do than insult good people. People say Rosie does the same...difference is she's a comedian! Ooops....ADD flare up.
FAT...a well fed individual
FAT...an overweight person
FAT...animal cells that contain an excess amount of oils
FAT...where it's at...my hips, my thighs, my body is fat...I am not!!!
