So Thursday I did it...I called Acadia OB/GYN and made an appointment for a consultation! March 18th we will meet with Dr. Bretta and get the ball rolling!
I was instantly excited. Any fear was gone and replaced with an "OMG, we're actually doing this." I instantly text Jen & her mom. Both very excited. Facebooked Jen who actually text me then called me because she couldn't wait to hear the news. She's very supportive right now!
Now I have even more drive to exercise and eat right!
So, I made the near perfect birthday cake for Lillie. Spongebob...I did awesome...it was like I was channelling Mom to get every character perfect! Her party was interesting...many awkward moments...and like always Lillie came back to Norridgewock with us!
We had an ok night. Jen's little snips are really getting to me. When I call her on it, she gets pissed. Her mom said she's just like her dad. As the night when on she got worse. Then she, Pete and Michelle went out to smoke...that's when I decided it was time for bed. I don't care if she only does it once in a while...I don't like it! NEVER WILL! Today Jen was hungover and sick as a dog...karma is all I have to say. I love her dearly but I can't love that. I can't feel bad for something she does to herself. I refuse to baby her...she's on her own.
On the flip side...there was a lot of baby talk this weekend. We threw out all kinds of names...Jacoby, Harrison, (Oh, Green Bay just won the Super Bowl)...for girls Madison, Madeline, Peyton. We even joked about Peyton Lynda (like Painting Lynda...which of course Jen ran with...we can spell it P-A-I-N-T-I-N-G...weirdo!).
So I have a day of detox ahead of me. I started the day off right...Fiber One Bar and Coffee knowing we were going to Mei Lee Gardens for lunch. I had 2 fingers, 1/2 egg roll, rice, a wing and a rangoon. By about 1:30-2 I had enough gas to fuel a bus. I had another finger, egg roll, 2 rangoons and some rice for supper and again, I was explosive. Then I topped it all off with ice cream. Tomorrow is all about salad, oatmeal, V8, and veg...plus 1 hour or more of cardio. I'm glad yucky food is making me feel yucky...my body is adjusting to good food!
Well, Jen's off to Portland in the morning, I have a car for 2 days, it's suppose to snow again Tuesday...auditions start tomorrow but are all messed up thanks to basketball tournaments...and I have NO help! I am not looking forward to this week at all!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Think Positive....
So, I admit, I can be a pessimist...nah, more of a worrier. So, when it all boils down, I am worried I won't get pregnant. BUT THEN, I turn it all around and daydream and smile about that little bundle of joy I'll be holding. THEN I read something about weight, diet, nutrition, exercise, age verse fertility and get bummed out. BUT THEN I think of all the over 35 women who've successfully conceived and I visualize what pregnancy and birth will be like.
STAY FOCUSED!
I've had an awesome week thus far. Exercised twice on Monday & today, a brief cardio stint Tuesday morning, switched a salad for the fries at CPG last night and salad for tortillas at lunch today. This goal weight is in sight and I'm read to rock a new body and vessel for my child.
Next step, call the OB/GYN...I'm so nervous only because I don't know what to ask for. I guess I can be up front about that when I call. Once that call is over and that appointment is made, I'll be on the road to mommyhood!
Jen's mom continues to say how honored she is to do this for us. However, she is very hard on Jen and that's tough because I can see where she's coming from but I know Jen will rise to the occasion. I do however, know how Jen can be and I really don't need the stress of her more angry moments especially during a pregnancy. I may have to have that chat with her.
Well, 4 great days of cardio and healthy eating...my body will be ready before I know it!
STAY FOCUSED!
I've had an awesome week thus far. Exercised twice on Monday & today, a brief cardio stint Tuesday morning, switched a salad for the fries at CPG last night and salad for tortillas at lunch today. This goal weight is in sight and I'm read to rock a new body and vessel for my child.
Next step, call the OB/GYN...I'm so nervous only because I don't know what to ask for. I guess I can be up front about that when I call. Once that call is over and that appointment is made, I'll be on the road to mommyhood!
Jen's mom continues to say how honored she is to do this for us. However, she is very hard on Jen and that's tough because I can see where she's coming from but I know Jen will rise to the occasion. I do however, know how Jen can be and I really don't need the stress of her more angry moments especially during a pregnancy. I may have to have that chat with her.
Well, 4 great days of cardio and healthy eating...my body will be ready before I know it!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
No Pressure!
I steal this saying from my wonderful mother-in-law, Glenda. She and I were chatting on Facebook this afternoon and she offered to pay for our first insemenation. I was floored! Seriously? She said yes, she wants a grandbaby! WOW!
So now I need to kick up my healthy lifestyle (I refuse to call it a diet). I saw an episode of "Heavy" today. Granted the patients are at a "fat farm" for 6 months, but they lost like 70 lbs in that time. I can do that, right? I can do anything.
No more excuses. I have a new balance board, my first round of sperm bought for us, and now is the time! If I can lose 70 lbs in 6 months, that'll put us to summer...perfect...our kid would be here by the end of the next school year!
I'm going to exercise twice a day! Eat SOOOOO healthy! Pray! Love no hate! Be proactive and advocate for this baby...our baby...the next Lewis grandbaby!
WOO HOO!
So now I need to kick up my healthy lifestyle (I refuse to call it a diet). I saw an episode of "Heavy" today. Granted the patients are at a "fat farm" for 6 months, but they lost like 70 lbs in that time. I can do that, right? I can do anything.
No more excuses. I have a new balance board, my first round of sperm bought for us, and now is the time! If I can lose 70 lbs in 6 months, that'll put us to summer...perfect...our kid would be here by the end of the next school year!
I'm going to exercise twice a day! Eat SOOOOO healthy! Pray! Love no hate! Be proactive and advocate for this baby...our baby...the next Lewis grandbaby!
WOO HOO!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Baby, Baby
So a year ago we were all gung-ho that 2010 was going to be the year we got pregnant. Well, it's 2011 and we've gone NO WHERE!
Every other month I'm dieting to get down to that "healthy weight" and I fall off the wagon and start over again.
THIS TIME IS DIFFERENT...and I mean it!
Monday Jen & I had the day off together. We were talking about what to have for lunch. I mentioned we had all kinds of leftovers and she sternly said that we needed to start eating better because she had a baby dream and we were going to get pregnant. WOW! I wanted to burst into tears. She said her tax return is going toward sperm!
So, okay, she had the dream, Jen wants this too. I want this WAY more than she does, but it's in her head...good, good, good....here we goooooooo.
So, I start again...eating better, exercising, resisting temptation. I had a headache for 3 days...ate only between 1300-1800 calories, and this IS the year!
Tuesday got me jacked up even more...Deanna is pregnant with twins! She jokingly asked if I wanted one...if she only knew how much I ached to have a baby. BUT...I'm not going to ache, I'm not going to get bummed out because when I think of how each good decision I make, each glass of water I drink, each 20 minute workout I survive, I get this rush...I'm doing this to have a baby. Then I get excited, not sad because it hasn't happened yet.
Oprah inspires me. In 1998 she pulled her name from the Emmy's so someone else had a chance. Rosie won. She got on stage, hugged Oprah and through the tears said "IF YOU BELIEVE IT AND DREAM IT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!" Well, I'm dreaming it, I'm believing it and it is going to happen.
Every other month I'm dieting to get down to that "healthy weight" and I fall off the wagon and start over again.
THIS TIME IS DIFFERENT...and I mean it!
Monday Jen & I had the day off together. We were talking about what to have for lunch. I mentioned we had all kinds of leftovers and she sternly said that we needed to start eating better because she had a baby dream and we were going to get pregnant. WOW! I wanted to burst into tears. She said her tax return is going toward sperm!
So, okay, she had the dream, Jen wants this too. I want this WAY more than she does, but it's in her head...good, good, good....here we goooooooo.
So, I start again...eating better, exercising, resisting temptation. I had a headache for 3 days...ate only between 1300-1800 calories, and this IS the year!
Tuesday got me jacked up even more...Deanna is pregnant with twins! She jokingly asked if I wanted one...if she only knew how much I ached to have a baby. BUT...I'm not going to ache, I'm not going to get bummed out because when I think of how each good decision I make, each glass of water I drink, each 20 minute workout I survive, I get this rush...I'm doing this to have a baby. Then I get excited, not sad because it hasn't happened yet.
Oprah inspires me. In 1998 she pulled her name from the Emmy's so someone else had a chance. Rosie won. She got on stage, hugged Oprah and through the tears said "IF YOU BELIEVE IT AND DREAM IT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!" Well, I'm dreaming it, I'm believing it and it is going to happen.
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