I steal this saying from my wonderful mother-in-law, Glenda. She and I were chatting on Facebook this afternoon and she offered to pay for our first insemenation. I was floored! Seriously? She said yes, she wants a grandbaby! WOW!
So now I need to kick up my healthy lifestyle (I refuse to call it a diet). I saw an episode of "Heavy" today. Granted the patients are at a "fat farm" for 6 months, but they lost like 70 lbs in that time. I can do that, right? I can do anything.
No more excuses. I have a new balance board, my first round of sperm bought for us, and now is the time! If I can lose 70 lbs in 6 months, that'll put us to summer...perfect...our kid would be here by the end of the next school year!
I'm going to exercise twice a day! Eat SOOOOO healthy! Pray! Love no hate! Be proactive and advocate for this baby...our baby...the next Lewis grandbaby!
WOO HOO!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
Baby, Baby
So a year ago we were all gung-ho that 2010 was going to be the year we got pregnant. Well, it's 2011 and we've gone NO WHERE!
Every other month I'm dieting to get down to that "healthy weight" and I fall off the wagon and start over again.
THIS TIME IS DIFFERENT...and I mean it!
Monday Jen & I had the day off together. We were talking about what to have for lunch. I mentioned we had all kinds of leftovers and she sternly said that we needed to start eating better because she had a baby dream and we were going to get pregnant. WOW! I wanted to burst into tears. She said her tax return is going toward sperm!
So, okay, she had the dream, Jen wants this too. I want this WAY more than she does, but it's in her head...good, good, good....here we goooooooo.
So, I start again...eating better, exercising, resisting temptation. I had a headache for 3 days...ate only between 1300-1800 calories, and this IS the year!
Tuesday got me jacked up even more...Deanna is pregnant with twins! She jokingly asked if I wanted one...if she only knew how much I ached to have a baby. BUT...I'm not going to ache, I'm not going to get bummed out because when I think of how each good decision I make, each glass of water I drink, each 20 minute workout I survive, I get this rush...I'm doing this to have a baby. Then I get excited, not sad because it hasn't happened yet.
Oprah inspires me. In 1998 she pulled her name from the Emmy's so someone else had a chance. Rosie won. She got on stage, hugged Oprah and through the tears said "IF YOU BELIEVE IT AND DREAM IT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!" Well, I'm dreaming it, I'm believing it and it is going to happen.
Every other month I'm dieting to get down to that "healthy weight" and I fall off the wagon and start over again.
THIS TIME IS DIFFERENT...and I mean it!
Monday Jen & I had the day off together. We were talking about what to have for lunch. I mentioned we had all kinds of leftovers and she sternly said that we needed to start eating better because she had a baby dream and we were going to get pregnant. WOW! I wanted to burst into tears. She said her tax return is going toward sperm!
So, okay, she had the dream, Jen wants this too. I want this WAY more than she does, but it's in her head...good, good, good....here we goooooooo.
So, I start again...eating better, exercising, resisting temptation. I had a headache for 3 days...ate only between 1300-1800 calories, and this IS the year!
Tuesday got me jacked up even more...Deanna is pregnant with twins! She jokingly asked if I wanted one...if she only knew how much I ached to have a baby. BUT...I'm not going to ache, I'm not going to get bummed out because when I think of how each good decision I make, each glass of water I drink, each 20 minute workout I survive, I get this rush...I'm doing this to have a baby. Then I get excited, not sad because it hasn't happened yet.
Oprah inspires me. In 1998 she pulled her name from the Emmy's so someone else had a chance. Rosie won. She got on stage, hugged Oprah and through the tears said "IF YOU BELIEVE IT AND DREAM IT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!" Well, I'm dreaming it, I'm believing it and it is going to happen.
Friday, January 15, 2010
TGIF
What a crazy friggin day...
Slept like crap so that triggered a dull headache. Today I subbed in 1st grade which was chaos...they are like mini-middle schoolers. Lunch duty was most entertaining watching one little girl eat her chicken salad with a potato chip and another dipping her chip into her choc milk! Then my friend who calls me "Music Teacher" put his transformer in his lunch bag and threw it away...had a mini-meltdown...it was bad! The afternoon dragged because we didn't have nearly enough busy work. 1/4 of the class breezes through things and are done their work, 1/2 are working at a good pace, the remaining 1/4 are slow, slow, slow...it sucks! Then there is Mr. Mr...if you catch my drift. It would be frustrating to have to work with him on a daily basis BUT at the same time you can't help but feel bad...when you say "Spelling word number 1. is He" give the example and everything and the kid write three 1's....OMG! When PE finally rolled around, I busted ass getting what I could of the fun afternoon set up. Thank goodness Lori, Becky and Heidi were there to finish the job because the 1st graders were being POKEY! That dragged too...I couldn't wait to get out of there!
Jen wanted to sit and relax tonight which I was fine with. We sat for 1/2 hour then jumped into supper and dishes. It wasn't til the tail end that we had a big fight over my tone, how I was being a bitch...I said things, she said things...I hate fighting with her but I hate feeling like my job is not stressful or tiring. I broke down a few times while I was trying to eat. After Jen ate, she went for a walk. I went about cleaning up and the dishes. When she returned home I stayed busy. She broke the ice, I cried (what else) and we made up.
Got an SOS from Jen A. I thought her first text about wanting to talk was about our friendship, but it was about Ben talking with another woman....bastard! We offered her to come over but she has to talk to Ben...she deserves so much better!
Off to visit with Hunter & Lillie tomorrow....Chinese Food...I've almost earned it....damn chocolate!
Slept like crap so that triggered a dull headache. Today I subbed in 1st grade which was chaos...they are like mini-middle schoolers. Lunch duty was most entertaining watching one little girl eat her chicken salad with a potato chip and another dipping her chip into her choc milk! Then my friend who calls me "Music Teacher" put his transformer in his lunch bag and threw it away...had a mini-meltdown...it was bad! The afternoon dragged because we didn't have nearly enough busy work. 1/4 of the class breezes through things and are done their work, 1/2 are working at a good pace, the remaining 1/4 are slow, slow, slow...it sucks! Then there is Mr. Mr...if you catch my drift. It would be frustrating to have to work with him on a daily basis BUT at the same time you can't help but feel bad...when you say "Spelling word number 1. is He" give the example and everything and the kid write three 1's....OMG! When PE finally rolled around, I busted ass getting what I could of the fun afternoon set up. Thank goodness Lori, Becky and Heidi were there to finish the job because the 1st graders were being POKEY! That dragged too...I couldn't wait to get out of there!
Jen wanted to sit and relax tonight which I was fine with. We sat for 1/2 hour then jumped into supper and dishes. It wasn't til the tail end that we had a big fight over my tone, how I was being a bitch...I said things, she said things...I hate fighting with her but I hate feeling like my job is not stressful or tiring. I broke down a few times while I was trying to eat. After Jen ate, she went for a walk. I went about cleaning up and the dishes. When she returned home I stayed busy. She broke the ice, I cried (what else) and we made up.
Got an SOS from Jen A. I thought her first text about wanting to talk was about our friendship, but it was about Ben talking with another woman....bastard! We offered her to come over but she has to talk to Ben...she deserves so much better!
Off to visit with Hunter & Lillie tomorrow....Chinese Food...I've almost earned it....damn chocolate!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Can't get down...
So I had a blah day...little motivation, serious ADD moments and snacky...must be that time of the month approaching! Even my workout seemed lifeless and dragged.
We had a nice dinner at City Park even though I wasn't in the mood to be there too long. Then we came home to play our new Mario game. That was so frustrating...Jen was getting pissed...I was ready to call it quits but she did before I had the chance. I was never good at that game as a kid, it's more frustrating as an adult. The 2 player mode isn't for us...we each get too frustrated.
Watched the first round of American Idol...it's amazing that they pass people through to the celebrity judge round for entertainment...sad in some ways because people just don't realize they are bad or are doing it on purpose...haven't figured that out yet!
Hoping that Wednesday speeds by and looking forward to a relaxing Thursday at home!
We had a nice dinner at City Park even though I wasn't in the mood to be there too long. Then we came home to play our new Mario game. That was so frustrating...Jen was getting pissed...I was ready to call it quits but she did before I had the chance. I was never good at that game as a kid, it's more frustrating as an adult. The 2 player mode isn't for us...we each get too frustrated.
Watched the first round of American Idol...it's amazing that they pass people through to the celebrity judge round for entertainment...sad in some ways because people just don't realize they are bad or are doing it on purpose...haven't figured that out yet!
Hoping that Wednesday speeds by and looking forward to a relaxing Thursday at home!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Reality Check
Saw a post this weekend from a Facebook friend/co-worker about hating money but thankful for this weekend. I got the full story from her at lunch and my heart broke into a million pieces. Everything is okay, but what if it wasn't...that's so tough! I feel like so many people have these successful pregnancies but there are a few that aren't or are troubled and lately they've been surrounding me. Me being the master worrier (not warrior) is already worried about my own and I'm not even close to being inseminated yet! Still, there is worry...BUT...I have to focus on today and what challenge is ahead of me...what do I need to do to get through another day and get myself that much closer to our goal. Only 354 days left of 2010 and so far so good...
Good start!!!
Week One weight results......-3.5 lbs!
WOO HOO!
I was so excited when I did my body test after my workout. I can do this, I will do this...YEAH BABY!
WOO HOO!
I was so excited when I did my body test after my workout. I can do this, I will do this...YEAH BABY!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
A great day...
Jen and I had a day off together. We slept til about 6:30, had coffee and our usual routine of online and TV. I did some housework while Jen showered. We had some quality time together before I showered. Then we headed to Bangor...she got 3 new outfits at JCP, 2 pair of shoes at Payless, I got 4 new bras and 5 new panties at Lane Bryant, we got a new Super Scrabble game, and then went to Applebees for lunch. Why do all the healthy options have to have mushrooms or peppercorns???
We went to Walmart then to Jen's to get my new phone...she was just getting out of bed even though I'm sure she wouldn't have done that had we not come over. 2:00 in the afternoon...come on now!!! Wait, there I go...focus on me, us, baby!
Our last stop was Hannaford...found whole grain pasta...hoping it doesn't taste like cardboard. We got home, unpacked, I played with my phone, we watched a little TV then moved to the kitchen so Jen could start supper. While sauce was simmering we played our new Scrabble game. All of a sudden I get a text from Aunt K. She was learning how to text on her new phone, apparently she was drinking too! Then she called from a bar! Then she send a picture of her and Kerry! WILD WOMAN! She had me in stitches.
We had supper, played just a little more Scrabble because Jen was tired then I did some house hunting.
My theory is that Jen needs to be home when I'm home because I am less likely to eat! Actually, today I wasn't that hungry...we weren't home much either, but still...it was a good feeling to not be controlled by food today!
We went to Walmart then to Jen's to get my new phone...she was just getting out of bed even though I'm sure she wouldn't have done that had we not come over. 2:00 in the afternoon...come on now!!! Wait, there I go...focus on me, us, baby!
Our last stop was Hannaford...found whole grain pasta...hoping it doesn't taste like cardboard. We got home, unpacked, I played with my phone, we watched a little TV then moved to the kitchen so Jen could start supper. While sauce was simmering we played our new Scrabble game. All of a sudden I get a text from Aunt K. She was learning how to text on her new phone, apparently she was drinking too! Then she called from a bar! Then she send a picture of her and Kerry! WILD WOMAN! She had me in stitches.
We had supper, played just a little more Scrabble because Jen was tired then I did some house hunting.
My theory is that Jen needs to be home when I'm home because I am less likely to eat! Actually, today I wasn't that hungry...we weren't home much either, but still...it was a good feeling to not be controlled by food today!
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