Week One weight results......-3.5 lbs!
WOO HOO!
I was so excited when I did my body test after my workout. I can do this, I will do this...YEAH BABY!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
A great day...
Jen and I had a day off together. We slept til about 6:30, had coffee and our usual routine of online and TV. I did some housework while Jen showered. We had some quality time together before I showered. Then we headed to Bangor...she got 3 new outfits at JCP, 2 pair of shoes at Payless, I got 4 new bras and 5 new panties at Lane Bryant, we got a new Super Scrabble game, and then went to Applebees for lunch. Why do all the healthy options have to have mushrooms or peppercorns???
We went to Walmart then to Jen's to get my new phone...she was just getting out of bed even though I'm sure she wouldn't have done that had we not come over. 2:00 in the afternoon...come on now!!! Wait, there I go...focus on me, us, baby!
Our last stop was Hannaford...found whole grain pasta...hoping it doesn't taste like cardboard. We got home, unpacked, I played with my phone, we watched a little TV then moved to the kitchen so Jen could start supper. While sauce was simmering we played our new Scrabble game. All of a sudden I get a text from Aunt K. She was learning how to text on her new phone, apparently she was drinking too! Then she called from a bar! Then she send a picture of her and Kerry! WILD WOMAN! She had me in stitches.
We had supper, played just a little more Scrabble because Jen was tired then I did some house hunting.
My theory is that Jen needs to be home when I'm home because I am less likely to eat! Actually, today I wasn't that hungry...we weren't home much either, but still...it was a good feeling to not be controlled by food today!
We went to Walmart then to Jen's to get my new phone...she was just getting out of bed even though I'm sure she wouldn't have done that had we not come over. 2:00 in the afternoon...come on now!!! Wait, there I go...focus on me, us, baby!
Our last stop was Hannaford...found whole grain pasta...hoping it doesn't taste like cardboard. We got home, unpacked, I played with my phone, we watched a little TV then moved to the kitchen so Jen could start supper. While sauce was simmering we played our new Scrabble game. All of a sudden I get a text from Aunt K. She was learning how to text on her new phone, apparently she was drinking too! Then she called from a bar! Then she send a picture of her and Kerry! WILD WOMAN! She had me in stitches.
We had supper, played just a little more Scrabble because Jen was tired then I did some house hunting.
My theory is that Jen needs to be home when I'm home because I am less likely to eat! Actually, today I wasn't that hungry...we weren't home much either, but still...it was a good feeling to not be controlled by food today!
Friday, January 8, 2010
MUCH more challenging day...
Ugh, I feel badly about today. Doesn't help that I've had a headache all day long! My eating was so sporatic and I've been hungry and not very busy so that didn't help my cause. Blah! At least I found a healthy alternative for supper....with the exception of bread and butter...who can pass up a Gov's dinner roll?
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Survived the day...
So I'm a total loser and curled up on the couch at 7am and slept another 2 1/2 hours. I dragged ass to get housework done but eventually it got there.
I had some lunch before completing my workout but I got it in. I sweat a little today too. Slowly but surely I'll work up to where I used to be...little by little. Every bead of sweat, every pound shed is another step closer to motherhood!
We had such an awesome supper tonight....Jen's lemon pepper haddock, roasted squash and steamed broccoli. It was so good, so healthy and easy to make. I was on such a high after supper because I felt I had just eaten the most healthy meal. I was so proud of us. Then I caught the end of the evening news...talking about the obesity in America. I thought "Oh God, that's me...I'm one of those 35%...I'm a statistic." I don't want to be a statistic...I want to be a mom. I felt so sorry for the 16 year old who had already dropped 50 lbs but still weighed over 400lbs. In that 400lb girl, I saw Jen A...she's just 30 or so pounds away from that...but, I'm not suppose to worry about her....it's our year...our year to be parents.
I'm still worried about Jen. The bullshit is piling up and it's wearing her down. We had a tense moment because I'm trying to get her to open up and admit she's not just tired. I forget sometimes I can't pry...I just need to let her talk on her time. I love her so much...I want my baby back. She did open up a little bit as Ann was texting her...what a fucked up mess with Todd throwing her under the bus. On a happy note, she did say that she had to change her password at work today...let's just say that being parents is on her mind as much as it is mine!!!
Tomorrow I need to work on a letter to Dr. Davis. A lot of what he said in the meeting yesterday made sense. I'm so on the fence about my job...I want to stay, but I have to do what's right for my family. Then I think if I talk to him, maybe things will change for me next year, but what if they don't? And if I leave, will that be the end of music in Milford? I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ended a program. That's why I need to write and edit and write and edit before I send it but I need to reach out. He needs to know I care.
Whitney....out!
I had some lunch before completing my workout but I got it in. I sweat a little today too. Slowly but surely I'll work up to where I used to be...little by little. Every bead of sweat, every pound shed is another step closer to motherhood!
We had such an awesome supper tonight....Jen's lemon pepper haddock, roasted squash and steamed broccoli. It was so good, so healthy and easy to make. I was on such a high after supper because I felt I had just eaten the most healthy meal. I was so proud of us. Then I caught the end of the evening news...talking about the obesity in America. I thought "Oh God, that's me...I'm one of those 35%...I'm a statistic." I don't want to be a statistic...I want to be a mom. I felt so sorry for the 16 year old who had already dropped 50 lbs but still weighed over 400lbs. In that 400lb girl, I saw Jen A...she's just 30 or so pounds away from that...but, I'm not suppose to worry about her....it's our year...our year to be parents.
I'm still worried about Jen. The bullshit is piling up and it's wearing her down. We had a tense moment because I'm trying to get her to open up and admit she's not just tired. I forget sometimes I can't pry...I just need to let her talk on her time. I love her so much...I want my baby back. She did open up a little bit as Ann was texting her...what a fucked up mess with Todd throwing her under the bus. On a happy note, she did say that she had to change her password at work today...let's just say that being parents is on her mind as much as it is mine!!!
Tomorrow I need to work on a letter to Dr. Davis. A lot of what he said in the meeting yesterday made sense. I'm so on the fence about my job...I want to stay, but I have to do what's right for my family. Then I think if I talk to him, maybe things will change for me next year, but what if they don't? And if I leave, will that be the end of music in Milford? I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ended a program. That's why I need to write and edit and write and edit before I send it but I need to reach out. He needs to know I care.
Whitney....out!
Challenge of the Day
Today is my day off...you know what that means...home alone! I must stay away from the kitchen. I have a lot to keep me busy, I just can't overeat!
I read a Facebook friend's status that said she was going to replace one bad thing with one good thing every day. I don't know that I have "bad things" to give up, I'm just trying to make positive changes.
I slipped a little yesterday but not bad. In the afternoon, I was starving at school while sticking around for my meeting. I remembered the candy in the closet. 210 calories for 5 pieces...I had 2 pieces...just enough to satisfy that urge. Jen asked what we were having for supper. I grabbed a box of lean pockets, but I told her we could have pizza and she didn't have to wait for me. I ate both pockets around 5pm and when I got home at 7:15, there on the table was a salad! Yay! That worked in my favor.
Yesterday I also psyched myself into thinking I've already lost weight. My pants seemed to button with little effort...I think it's all in my mind because it'd only been 3 days. I just try to keep in mind that I'm doing this all for a baby.
Day 4....away we go!
I read a Facebook friend's status that said she was going to replace one bad thing with one good thing every day. I don't know that I have "bad things" to give up, I'm just trying to make positive changes.
I slipped a little yesterday but not bad. In the afternoon, I was starving at school while sticking around for my meeting. I remembered the candy in the closet. 210 calories for 5 pieces...I had 2 pieces...just enough to satisfy that urge. Jen asked what we were having for supper. I grabbed a box of lean pockets, but I told her we could have pizza and she didn't have to wait for me. I ate both pockets around 5pm and when I got home at 7:15, there on the table was a salad! Yay! That worked in my favor.
Yesterday I also psyched myself into thinking I've already lost weight. My pants seemed to button with little effort...I think it's all in my mind because it'd only been 3 days. I just try to keep in mind that I'm doing this all for a baby.
Day 4....away we go!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Worry of the day...
...Jen. I worry about her sometimes...okay, all of the time. She seems really down right now and I don't know what is wrong. When I ask, she says she's tired. I know she's had a crazy week so far with the fallout from staying open during a storm, a meeting in a Augusta, 2 meetings in Portland. Still, she's made mention to me and Ann that she's not happy with her job. I asked her if she regrets moving to Ellsworth. She said sometimes. That made my heart drop. I hate seeing her like this...it breaks my heart. I love her so much and I love the happy her. We had an amazing 3 days at home together and we never even argued once. Not that we are arguing now, but that tention is there and I don't like living like that. I wish I could make things better. I think we both need a change....career change, living situation change, a life makeover.
Jen said she was thinking about our wedding, when we get to have one. She was listening to the song "Yeah" and said it would be cool if we learned how to dance to it, like choreographed and had that as our first dance. I'm glad she's so positive about that happening because we could be in our 60s at the rate the country is going. NH assholes are looking to overturn their marriage law now!!!
Anyway, I'm sure I'm worrying about nothing...this too will pass.
Time for my focus of the day...Day 1: Eating Healthy, Day 2: Exercise.....Day 3...hmmm, I think today I need to focus on getting organized at school. I should take one day a week to do that. I have a meeting tonight, show choir starts next week, new music needs to be distributed for chorus and band...need to take a little time to get that together.
Happy Hump Day everyone!
Jen said she was thinking about our wedding, when we get to have one. She was listening to the song "Yeah" and said it would be cool if we learned how to dance to it, like choreographed and had that as our first dance. I'm glad she's so positive about that happening because we could be in our 60s at the rate the country is going. NH assholes are looking to overturn their marriage law now!!!
Anyway, I'm sure I'm worrying about nothing...this too will pass.
Time for my focus of the day...Day 1: Eating Healthy, Day 2: Exercise.....Day 3...hmmm, I think today I need to focus on getting organized at school. I should take one day a week to do that. I have a meeting tonight, show choir starts next week, new music needs to be distributed for chorus and band...need to take a little time to get that together.
Happy Hump Day everyone!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
The more I think about it...
...the more excited and scared I get. I can't obsess though, I have to take one day at a time. I have to focus on what needs to be done now, so we can do what needs to be done down the road so we can have what we want in the end.
Now...get healthy, save money, and get our affairs in order.
Down the road...doctor's appointment, insemination (1, 2, 3, 10 times???)
End result...a baby!!!
Still, my mind starts bouncing all around and I wonder if and when, how much will it cost. I wish I could share this with Jen but I know she's not a master worrier like me.
That's why I say...one day at a time. Yesterday's focus was eating healthy, today's will be exercise. My first session in months...I need to get back into a routine. As much as it sucked, I saw results and others did to!
Now...get healthy, save money, and get our affairs in order.
Down the road...doctor's appointment, insemination (1, 2, 3, 10 times???)
End result...a baby!!!
Still, my mind starts bouncing all around and I wonder if and when, how much will it cost. I wish I could share this with Jen but I know she's not a master worrier like me.
That's why I say...one day at a time. Yesterday's focus was eating healthy, today's will be exercise. My first session in months...I need to get back into a routine. As much as it sucked, I saw results and others did to!
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